Passion

Passion. The mere word sends shivers down my spine. Passion to have an uncontrollable outburst of emotion...what??? Where is my passion, my desire?!!! Did I leave it behind somewhere? I wonder if it fell from the hole in my pocket? Where is it? Did I hide it under a rock? No, surely not under a rock.

As a matter fact, I hide my passion under things like guilt, shame, unforgiveness, anger, bitterness and the ever popular tiredness! My passions are hidden, because I choose to hide it. I have places I haven't wanted to look. I want to live in denial. The walls I built around my self are comforting. It's easier to be passionless...to do the bear minimum.

Passionless Prayer - When my prayer life is all about me, instead God's will for me.
Passionless Friendships - When I extend myself enough to only those I want to like.
Passionless Bible Study - When I read but don't absorb.
Passionless Worship - When I think about worship in terms of how it makes me feel, instead of glorifying God.
Passionless Leader - When I feel I need motivation instead of giving it.

Challenges for me this year are to find the passion for my Lord, the passion for my life, passion for every aspect in my life. Really a challenge for everyone to look at and think about. Where do your passions lie?

It's easy to talk about harder to actually accomplish the goals. Another challenge, as resolutions get promised don't lose sight of the objective, regaining passion! Leaping forward and trusting God with my life entire, not little bits and pieces of my life, but the Lord deserves my passion. He had passion for me, enough passion to send Jesus to die for me.

I look forwarded to the joys, hopes even the troubled times for this new year. As the Lord stretches my faith, I hope I can lay my best at His feet! To gain control I have to relinquish it. When I finally give up and let God have charge over my life, I can lay down my brokenness, faithlessness, my anger, my bondage to control, He picks me up dusts me off and unleashes me back into the world healed and restored!

Isa 58:8
Your light shall break forth like the morning, your healing shall spring forth speedily, and your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.