THE LEAP

Well, we are beginning to have folks sign-up for our small group ministries on Sunday August 31st. This a big leap for me. I haven't lead a study before. I've been to plenty. The issues singles face are so unique to each individual, that I hope the topics can touch people. I'm perfectly happy being single. I have been married before and I don't want to do it again. Although, I can understand why people want to get married. (It's a struggle but I get it.)

The leap comes from not wanting to disappoint my church, the people signing up or most of all God. I don't take failure easily, I'm codependent so I want to "fix" and "control" everything. The thing is I realize the flaw, but I still want to do it. I'm trying to get out of the way and let God lead this group. Because my standard answer is "Just get over it, already!" So I guess that's what I need to say to myself...Just get over it and do it already!

The leap is more about my willingness to totally rely on God. You know how therapist have people take the test of "trust"...falling back and letting someone catch you. I never understood the test...first I don't trust anyone that much, second they'd have to be pretty strong to catch me. (I'm not the thinnest rope in the shed.) So here I go taking the Nestea Plunge into leading a study for singles, trying to connect all the struggles singles face and boy...I'm exhausted already. I hope God realizes I haven't swam in a while and I don't want to drown!

The leap is a test of character and the Lord has such a sense of humor when He tests mine. Our first topic will be on "Starting small" so is that a jolt to my senses or what...He's telling me I have to start small.

He doesn't expect miracles, He performs them. He doesn't want it to be about me, He wants it to be about Him. He doesn't heal the healthy, He restores the sick. He won't withhold his bounty, He showers us with blessings. He doesn't leave us stumbling in the dark, He lights the path. He is Jehovah, the Lord. He is Jehovah Jireh, the Lord who provides. He is Jehovah Rapha, the Lord that heals. He is Adonai Jehovah, the Lord God. Jehovah Mephalti, the Lord my deliverer. He is Jehovah ‘Ori, the Lord my light. He is Jehovah Yasha, the Lord thy Saviour.

The leap doesn't taunt me any more, I will take it willingly. He is strong enough to catch me for He is Jehovah Tsori, O Lord My strength.